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I grew strong and I learned how to get along

2011-10-05T15:06:00.001-07:00

As I sit in this bakery cafe, listening to a jazz guitarist strum away, I'm filled with a sense of awareness...

It's been a long time since I set my mind to do something really big, but now I've got my mind determined to change who I am in many ways... In what I do, in where I place my priorities, who I associate with. I've recently decided to make some very critical key changes to my life. And even this small change of coming to a new cafe to study is a part of it.

It's going to be a difficult journey, but I'm going to make it happen. And at the end of it all I'm going to be so happy with the result. Just watch.

Project 365: 236-240

2011-08-28T20:06:00.001-07:00

#236: I like going home to see my dog... He's so not a puppy anymore but he'll always be one to me!

#237: My drummer friend Jeff and I headed to Just Drums for a great drum clinic from Jim Riley. We got a lot of good free swag out of it, too!

#238: This year is such a busy wedding season year! Luckily there's only one left... Just in time for my wallet to begin feeling e effects of my Hong Kong / Australia trip and Christmas.

#239: My new bike! :). I went to Canadian Tire one day and ended up walking out with a new bike, helmet, and lock.

#240: I love my old church. It's such a welcoming environment where everyone can just come as they are... Not to mention the AV crew is spectacular!

Project 365: 231-235

2011-08-23T20:59:00.001-07:00

#231: Yums food after a long, hard, day of work. Of course with extra garlic dip. And extra bonus that the portion is so big it lasts two days!

#232: Although I was trying to avoid constantly just posting pictures of things that I eat LOL, I ran out of ideas short of plastering images of my family scarfing down food at all-we-could-eat hot pot. So here's just a pot for you to look at. :)

#233: My dog does two things really well... PLAY and SLEEP. Why choose one when you can have both? :)

#234: At my mom's house a small reminder of my beauty queen days hangs in my bedroom... It's held there by a softball trophy hah!

#235: Even though purple is my favourite colour, I had to compromise and go with red... At least all of my gear is purple! Yay!

Project 365: 228-230

2011-08-19T18:41:00.001-07:00

*So I'm a little behind the times with this Project 365 thing, but I thought it might be a nice thing to start blogging and to play with my iPad and retro photo app. :)

#228: I realized how many things I need go eat and drink every day in order to stay alert at work haha. There's also a definite Starbucks trend happening here.

#229: I've always loved doing puzzles. A few years ago I learned how to do slitherlinks and I've been addicted ever since!

#230: The last two Absolute towers are just about done... And even though they're not incredibly appealing, the look surely does grow on you. If you ever get a chance to see the sunset come off the curves of this tower, take it!

For He's a Jolly Good Fellow

2011-08-09T13:54:00.001-07:00

I'm like a bird - I'll only fly away

2011-07-19T22:15:00.001-07:00

Periodically there are times in my life where I just want to fly away... I just want to pick up and move far far away where life is brand new and everything and everyone that has caused me grief is no longer a part of my concerns or worries. I'm sick and tired of trusting people only to have them stab me in the face the first chance that they get to benefit themselves. God challenges us to give more of ourselves to others than to be concerned with our wants, but lately it feels like I'm the only one who's doing it.

It seems as though every day is like climbing a jagged mountain, which sharp edges that cut through your hands and feet... and with each step that you think is a step made forward, every cut through your hands and feet eventually sends you falling back most of the distance you accomplished since your last fall... as so the climb is a slow, arduous, and exhausting one.

And so you have to believe that eventually some day you'll reach a clearing, where the paths are clear, and shielded from the storms surrounding... and everything around you flourishes and thrives in the warming sunlight. Without this belief that things will eventually get better, life is very hard and very depressing... believe me.

I saw a poster at work once with this quote... "Perseverance: A man who wants to move a mountain begins by removing small stones."

Here goes. Good riddance, rocks of betrayal and mistrust. Climb every mountain. Forge every stream. When God closes a door, somewhere he opens a window.

If everything is yours, I'm letting it go...

2011-06-22T12:40:00.000-07:00

When all the world is blossoming and everything around is bursting into life and I don't have to strain to hear the beat of your heart... When all the world is under fire, when skies are threatening to thunder and rain and I am overcome by fears that I can't see...If everything is yours, everything is yours. If everything is yours, I'm letting it go. No, it was never mine to hold. Who could command the stars to sing or hold the raging seas from breaking through the doors and tend the fragile roses with the very same hands? If everything is yours, everything is yours. If everything is yours, God, I'm letting it go. No, it was never mine to hold.